This is a constant struggle of late. When I am really busy, tied up with lots to do, I tell myself that I should take a break, relax and recharge before I re-enter the madness. But the moment I get into that "I shall do nothing" mode, I kick myself for doing nothing and wasting the day away where I could have done something productive.
The weekends are the best examples. When Monday comes, I'd either tell myself, "man, I should have just slept more, watch more DVDs or simply, do nothing more" or "man, why did I sleep the weekend away, I could have done this and that".
So, the conclusion is I want it all. I've probably said this a million times and I'm still struggling with it. I know clearly that I can't have it all, but it doesn't stop me from wanting it all.
The objective and wise way to curb this issue is balance. As an audio engineer and musician, I've always been taught that balance (and communication) is everything. Maybe all this while I've been hearing, but not listening. It's clearer than ever now that I see the balance in its abstract form. I understand the concept now. But I only apply this concept of balance in music and audio. It should be as easy as crossing the concept over to life in general but somehow, I still struggle. Hopefully, in a few years time, when I read this post, I could go, "it is that easy".
So here I am, still thinking whether I should watch a DVD and unwind, or do something more productive. What would you do if you were in my shoes?
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Broken Scar's album, Midnight In St. Kilda is available on www.mytracks.com/brokenscar
Broken Scar's album, Midnight In St. Kilda is available on www.mytracks.com/brokenscar
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